wanted dead or alive: my motivation [reward offered]

I am apathetic, this is true. I don't possess will power. I rarely finish what I start. I've searched everywhere I can think to look and have come to the conclusion that my motivation has been misplaced. It is lost and forgotten, MIA if you will. In fact, who knows how long this blog will even last. My money is placed on the bet that I will grow too tired and lazy to update love.lauryn. after the first couple of weeks. Like everything in life, the novelty will eventually wear off and the paint will begin to peel. About that time, I'll move on to something new and more exciting, like usual. The unfortunate thing is, although I have given up trying in many areas of my life, I am somehow able to do things with considerable ease. For example, I have missed over 15 sessions of my Art History II class, but have yet to receive anything below an 85% on any one assignment. This presents a great problem. There are no real consequences for my apathy, hence no changes occur. I need a good failure to whip me into shape. In fact, I am asking for a degree of failure. Please and thank you.

love.lauryn.